The picture post!

  Envy me....hehehee :D

These are all of my new things.

Things i got from Israel.

My newest addition to my Fruttini collection.

Cosmetics that i ordered from Oriflame.

And the neon-eyeshadow that i finally got thanks to my older sister.

So that's it for this time.

Yours sincerely: InsincereBlack

My new chanse.

 Hello there people of the Earth... :D

Well as we see i haven't written anything in 5 months, ups! my bad. Anyway this new post is going to be about my life in my new school and how i've coped with all the changes so far.

Well in my last post i wrote about quiting high-school....after some thinking and talking with my parents i just switched schools. Right now I'm attending home-near Tsirguliina High-school with only 150 other student from 1-12Th grade. In my class there are 15 people counting me. In my old school we had 3 parallels for every grade but here we have only one. There are two things i really like about this school, first of - we have school bus so every morning and after school we don't have to think about transportation, second of - classes start at 8.15 and end 14.50 which is awesome. But of course every coin has two sides, so does mine. The thing that i mostly don't like about my school are some of the teachers that work there. They are just so nosy and always ask things about my personal life that i maybe don't want to talk about. For example my class teacher always asks me why i switched schools and stuff like that, stuff that I'm not comfortable telling about.

The people in my class are pretty awesome, although there are some who i just wanna bury alive. I'm in the same class with two sisters who were also in playschool with me. Two other girls i know trough Red Cross and one boy is friend of my sisters. I have gotten pretty good grades so far but i have alot catching up to do.

So now from my new school to my "interesting" life. I don't remember all of the things that I've done in meantime but at least some of them. Let's see, i went to my second Rammstein concert witch was totally awesome and even my preppy sister started to like them plus i got their T-shirt, it's to big for me but bitch pleas I'll wear it as a dress. I don't have my lip piercing any more :( and my hair is back to black but with some magenta pink stripes. I had a little party like thing in my house with almost all the girls from my class and my friend from our Japan Project. Our Japan Project is pretty much just four Saturdays of us talking about japan and teaching different things from japan. So what else.....mhmh....Ahh... my dad and step-mom visited Israel. They just got back today at 7am. They bought like a shit load of stuff :) I got a ring and a body butter but I'll but the pictures in my next post with some more pictures of my other new things(next post will be picture post).  BTW. I'm now an Oriflame consultant so i can earn some money to buy a new phone in the end of the summer. If I'm lucky i might get a job in Finland also. Let's keep fingers crossed 'cause i really need that job. I think that's about it. Boring i know. And BTW...it's April and it's snowing -.- Fmylife... i need spring. So next post will be only pictures and few words of text.

Until i breath on my own, Yours sincerely: InsincereBlack

We all fuck up sometimes.....it looks like i fuck up more then others do....

Well let's see where to begin....

my hair is blue, i have a piercing and I'm seriously thinking about ending my high school year right now and taking a free year. So let's start from the begging........I dyed my hair blue for the first time 30.10.11 and the next day i re-bleached it to add some pink and yellow. It was pretty awesome. Now i have blue hair with slight light-green places because my hair isn't evenly bleached :(. My dad was Ok but my mom was rather shocked....lol. So on 20.11.11. i did my first real piercing (not ears) on to my lover lip, and because of that i almost blacked-out  ~.~ I'm happy that it's OK now and i can soon make the other one to so i can have my snake bites, not just a single piercing. Same night i did mine Ness did her other pierc. so now she has snake bites. She is luckier than me and doesn't have to hide them from her parents -.- I wish my parents would approve them as easily. Oh and if it wasn't clear we did our pierc. our selves. Ness's mom gave us some medicine to numb our lips before doing the piercings. At first we hoped that we didn't have to use the syringe, but after some testing we injected it to our lips. It numbed the skin in a second. Next day, after school i bought a new barbel for the piercing to replace the playboy bunny one Ness gave me -.-



And now before i move on to more serious themes let me talk about our little dysfunctional family :D

Almost 2 weeks ago Ness and Niji started hosting two guys from Tallinn. So almost every time i go there, we star a small/huge party that usually lasts until 3 or 4 a.m...almost every time we have school on next day :D The y guys are pretty fun and friendly but they have some serious raging' problems xD Last week when i re-dyed my hair we decided to play Baila *themostawesomedrinkinggameever* but we didn't have the cards...so while Niji was doing my hair, me and one of the boys made the cards :D We played two rounds and in the end of that night one of us was puking her guts out....*notme* So our dysfunctional family is Ness, Niji, two guys from Tallinn and me, and when i say dysfunctional then i really mean it :|

The serious part of this post is following right now...

I've been absent for some time from school land my parents don't like it. I can see why they don't and I'm not saying anything. Last week my mom told me about idea given to her by one of her fellow teachers. She told me that i could try applying to some exchange student program and leave for a year so when i come back i can start new. I really like that idea but some times i think that maybe i should just drop out and move to our old house that stands empty in the middle of a forest. My dad wouldn't have to pay the rent of my apartment in Tartu and i could watch the old house and start renovating it. The only bad thing about that plan is my pride, actually more my parents pride. I don't want them to be ashamed of me in front of their friends or relatives. I want what every child wants, i want to make them proud and happy, so they can talk good things about me and not lies. I know that if i continue with high school right now it won't get better, not for me and neither for them. I would slip and get bad grades, my dad would worry and his heart would fail, but that's the thing I'm most afraid of. I'm so afraid of loosing him, he doesn't know how much he means for me and i just can't imagine my life without him. He is maybe even the only man i ever love(i love him as a father). I know that i should just start going to school normally and get good grades but that is just not who i am. I can't change that and sadly my parents doesn't want to understand that. They think I'm just lazy and shit but actually there is much more that they could ever know.

And that takes me to where am i now, sitting on bed and trying to think what to do with my life. I have to make the decision that will probably affect not only my life but theirs also. Why can't just get a work as someone i want to be and be done with this school crap...the idea sounds almost easy ~.~

Until I'm alive. Yours sincerely: InsincereBlack

Uhhh...i`m still alive :D

I haven`t been posting for a.........yeah lets say, for too long time. I was busy with my summer job and then i went to Ireland, what was totally awesome. When i came back i had my birthday and then the SCHOOL started. It`s my first year in high school and live in a different city to. I have my own apartment and huge room for the first time in my life :D I go to Tartu Tamme Gymnasium and I'm in the nature class. At first i was in humanitarian class(10a) but i didn't like people back there so much and at one of our schooling events i met the people from nature class(10b) and i fell in love with them. They are such an awesome people and they know how to have fun.

 Before that on the second school week i had a day off. I used it to visit my old school and people from my old class who are attending high school in Valga. My father and few of my friends in Tartu were the only ones who knew about my trip, for the others it was a surprise. My mom who teaches in my old school was really surprised and happy to see me. When i went to the high school building to greet my other friends and wish happy birthday to Kami, they were in shock also....maybe it wasn't such a good idea to wear my violet lenses that day :D Anyways, Kami and the others were really happy to see me and i was happy to see them. When school day ended for them me, Kami and Anneli went to find our old teachers and just talk for a minute. We stopped at my moms class's extra room after that and talked for two hours. That day was truly worth every moment of it. Thinking about having another of these days. :)

On 24. and 25. September there was another AniMatsuri, yayyy:D I attended the runway show with my best friend, we were two of the gyaru girls in the show. The show took  place in one of the shopping centers in Tartu. It was pretty scary because all strangers were looking at us and we had to walk on class + i was wearing 6 inch heels. But the AniMatsuri in general was super awesome and fun, we met some cool people and made some awesome friends. Waiting for the next year :D

On the last Friday *day before yesterday from the day I'm writing this* we had a little part at my place. Niji had the plan and the people, i had the place. There were people i have never seen before but we made friends fast. That night i slept on a carpet in my kitchen.........Next day after the party in my apartment, one of my best friends was having a birthday party at her place. First she told me that there's gonna be like 15 people but the max number of people was 20. Luckily only 6 people staid for the night + she(Ness) and her flatmate(Niji).

Me and two super awesome guys who i just met that very day slept on the carpet.*again for me* Before we went to "bed" we watched "Where the fuck is Santa", tried to fight the heat *the room was over heated* and just joked. In morning when the other people woke up i guess they were like WTF because boys were sleeping only in their boxers and i was sleeping in a T-shirt and tights *i had jeans before*. When we finally woke up we made it clear wtf happened and why we were half-naked. After i finally got home today i went to bed but sadly only for two hours because me and my old class(10a) were going to the theater to see a play at 7pm. I thought it was going to be a usual type play but no, it was fucking 3 and a half hours long play. I was like omfg when i found out how long i have to sit there. So when it finally ended it was so late that only one bus was driving around and i had to walk from another stop to my apartment witch is like 1km away from the stop. The length of the road wasn't the issue, the issue was that i was wearing heels, had much make-up on and i was walking alone on the dark streets. I'm really happy i didn't get rapped or something.....and the play sucked also.

Now typing all this i feel like the time has flown past me really fast. I'm sad about the time that i haven't managed to spend with my family because of the busyness of my new life and about the fact that I'm not a kid anymore. I have to be responsible now and manage my life as a grown up. Sometimes i seriously want my childhood back but then again i want to be even more independent and have i job and everything. It`s so hard to make the right choices when you are not sure what to you exactly want from your life, but that is why we learn and go trough the life-school. To make it all clear to us and make us succeed in our upcoming life.

I feel like i write something from my heart now..yayyyyy i feel smart.......*random*

I seriously want to thank Daniel Lucas Oxford for giving me the inspiration to start posting again.THANK YOU <3




But now goodbye, until i post again.Yours sincerely: InsincereBlack

Kitten pictures

OMG

Guess what..we have 5 little kittens now. they are so adorable and if anyone in estonia reads this and wants a kittey please don`t be afraid to ask.

This is the kittens mommy- Sonja

i just had to .......

.......add this video. it`s one of the best things happened to me this month :D i won`t tell about others*love*